heroless endeavor

Apple benji you know its so crazy to have grown up with someone and been around them and not know exactly how extrordanry they really are. I learned that today. i made a new old friend.. and he has so much more than i ever knew.. he's very talented in many things. and we have alot more in common than i would have guessed.. so i wonder how many other people around me am i missing out on. how many other people can i connect with and establish great friendships with?? its been along time since i've really opened up to people. and its good to finally be finding people to hang out with and talk to.. we are all special and different. we have our own qualities, things that we are especially good at. im glad to be meeting those people. people whos differences add a little something extra to my life

Andy Rooney said on '60 Minutes': 'I don't think being a minority makes you a victim of anything exceptnumbers. The only things I can think of that are truly discriminatory arethings like the United Negro College Fund, Jet Magazine, Black EntertainmentTelevision, and Miss Black America. Try to have things like the UnitedCaucasian College Fund, Cloud Magazine, White Entertainment Television, orMiss White America ; and see what happens...Jesse Jackson will be knockingdown your door. Guns do not make you a killer. Ithink killing makes you a killer. You can kill someone with a baseball bator a car, but no one is trying to ban you from driving to the ball game. I believe they are called theBoy Scouts for a reason, which is why there are no girls allowed. Girlsbelong in the Girl Scouts! ARE YOU LISTENING MARTHA BURKE ? I think that if you feel homosexuality is wrong, it is not a phobia, it is an opinion. I have the right 'NOT' to be tolerant of others because they are...

I seen "the Time Travelers Wife", it was the greatest movie!! I can say I was very impressed. Now its a must to buy the book.. I've seen it around and heard good things about it. in fact it was on my book list.. but i just hadnt gotten to it yet.. (yes im a nerd and i have a book list). its my day off and i have nothing to do. what kind of crap is that?!?! good news... I get paid friday!!! yay for paychecks. I got a bridal shower and bachelorette party to attend on thursday! I love weddings! and they have been dating since like freshman year in highschool.. so that was 2001. so its about time!! i want some coffee.. somehow miss emily always gets coffee.. yes its true im a lil jealous I've pierced enough ears to last me a lifetime.. but i know there will be ALOT more for the next however long I continue to work at the ICING. its a great job.. i love the people i work with. and my manager is the best... though i have to be the tough one because she's way too nice.. ...

its been a long few days with work and homecoming. but its all been very good. wednesday is going to be my first day opening without anyone.. so im a lil nervous but HEY i got this.. ! Not much has really happened thats too interesting. I have finally decided to write the book i've always wanted to do. the only problem is i have the basis of what i want but not all the detail.. i pray it comes to me. i have always wanted to write. this will be my first attempt. of course it will be a book based on a fictional character but with real life experiences. it doesnt necessarily mean they will be my life but it will be someones. and i've always had it in my heart to write a childrens book as well.. there are topics that i want to touch on but to make them at a childs level will be a bit difficult. i want to write meaningful books for them. So they will actually learn something. i want to hit on things that they might be experiencing or going through. we will see how all of this works...

What a long day.. its only 9 and im ready for bed!! that never happens.. but over all it was a great day.. except there are so many people who came in for their ears pierced today.i have very shaky hands so i have to kinda shake it off before i do it.. which i was fine but it kind of gets tiring. but o well give the customer what they want if i can right? tax free weekend has been very hecktic though. but ive seen so many people that i havent seen since highschool! so its been good. i love seeing old faces. i close again tomorrow.. thank goodness that the mall closes at 6 on sundays! tomorrow is the start of homecoming.. how exciting is that. though im going to all 3 services and i know im gonna be antsy by the end of first.. im just like that.. well goodnight world..

So i was just thinking today.. id love to write a song. i havent done it in a few years so i think now is the time.. though i have never written lyrics on my own. i feel its so much easier when you have someone there who is sharing in your creativity. plus its so much easier.. but the truth is i havent really wrote anything thing in a long while. i need to start again before i loose any that i might have. I should really be sleeping i have to be up at 8 in the morning to open icings. but i have so much on my mind yet i feel like theres nothing there. its one of those times that you have so much feeling but you dont know what it is or how to get it out. i wanna cry but i cant. its so wierd i dont know how to. i mean i have cried before but it takes alot generally. but nothing comes out when i want it to. err i hate feeling shut up.. but i dont know how to open it either. i guess give it time and it'll go away. the only problem is i know it truly doesnt go away it just ge...