heroless endeavor

weheartit I want to be that quote that you never forget. The reason you check your phone a million times, just to see if I called. Can I be the reason for your smile Or why you can't seem to figure out what to wear. I want every love song to remind you of me. I want the distance between us to make you anticipate us being reunited. The sleepless nights.. I want those to be because of me too. I want to roam your dreams and live in your memory. Perhaps you can long for my voice with every passing minute. When you hear or read a story about lovers and their fight to be together.. Just know thats about us. If that movie comes on, may it remind you of me. I want THAT restaurant to make you smile.. not because it's so good, but because you see me there, even when I'm not. I want you to smile at the most awkward moments because you remember something we did together. I want all of that for you because I get all of those things. And if you get them, well maybe that means you love ...

where were you tonight? i needed you, i called. i was presented with the echoing ring and deadly silence. i just needed to hear your voice. i needed your reassurance. sometimes even when we're together i feel so alone. i need to find comfort with you.. but sometimes what i say doesnt seem to matter. its countered with the nonchalant additude. i ache from fear of losing it all. what if you get tired and just walk away. i pretend to give up easily, just in case you decide to back out. i am afraid you will turn around and leave me. ultimately thats what causes me to hold on tightly but its also causing me to push you away.