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dont run before you walk...

where could i have gone?? how could i have been? my world used to be so completely different than what it is today. everything within me has been broken and shattered to a million pieces.. parts of those pieces have been stolen and misplaced. who needs them anyway..
ive got cuts on my cuts and scars that still bleed. they wont be there forever.. little by little im healing. my chest doesnt feel as empty as it was yesterday. i still think of the stupid things ive done and the things people have done to me. what am i going to choose to be?? the victim or the victor? it makes more sense to be the victor... at least with my personality.. im to proud to let someone think they've beaten me down.. though its so much easier to be the victim.. but the victor achieves more. i think VICTOR wins hands down..
sure every once in awhile i fall down... but i dust off my knees and get back up again.. sometimes i even try to run before i walk.. never ends well.. but i learn and keep moving...

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