rambles

my insides are eating me from the inside out.. im caught between it and i dont know what to do.. im scared worried and confused.. o the choices we make and the people they affect. where do i go from here.. what do i say how do i do this.. im aching from the depths of my soul... please make the right decision.. follow your heart and do what you have to do... the more i think on it the more unsure i am.. now i think i've lost it all.. but for what?? what do i gain. i feel like a stinkin roller coaster that just keeps going and going.. its making me sick... i cant change how i feel.. i wanted it forever.. please dont make me say no.... i hope i didnt miss out on my chance..