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beautiful letdown...

my mind is going crazy.. i guess if im not wanted i wont push... though i enjoyed it thoroughly.. but did i really expect it to continue. on my butt once again. hmmm but my heart hurts even though i dont want it to. ill pretend im ok with the sudden change but.. ha i laugh at myself. its a LIE.. and i say i dont lie.. maybe not to you.. but to Anastasia i do. o well one day i'll wake up and realize why ppl always walk away. i must smell horrobly wrong.. i cant believe im awake at 3:24 in the morning with this.. thaanks.. soooooo very much. i blame myself.. good night.. until i can find some other crazy thing to say...

all i can say is "REMEMBER ME, OH GOD"....

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