heroless endeavor

mmm HELLO canadian idol!

the inspiration seems to have gone dry. where are you within my cries. all my lines are within the spaces i am lost in so many places. spining in the light of your halo my world focuses in and out, slow. the melody within my song is now so far long gone. halfway across this distance your smile reflects your absence. this photo on my wall lets me know your not here at all. i'll wait for you to find your way home, i know then i wont feel so alone.

i have suffered from an eating disorder.. you couldn't tell by looking at me now.. but its true. i have had moments and still do have moments of low self esteem and continue to struggle from time to time. so anyone else out there suffering from a disorder.. remember YOU ARE NOT ALONE. get help, talk to someone. it's ok to ask for someone to "hold your hand" in moments of weakness.. and remember we are all beautiful in some way. here is the NATIONAL EATING DISODER ASSOCIATION (NEDA) help line: 800-931-2237 or you can go to their website: http://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/

seriously makes me wanna cry.. how i need to start writing again

so i have decided that once a week i am going to post a blog about a missing person. i figure why not use this for good..so please if we can lets bring these people home.. this doodlebugs name is Lauryn Dickens .. Case Type: Non Family Abduction DOB: Nov 24, 2009 Sex: Female Missing Date: Sep 7, 2010 Race: Black Age Now: 11 Month(s) Height: 1'9" (53 cm) Missing City: MEMPHIS Weight: 17 lbs (8 kg) Missing State : TN Hair Color: Black Missing Country: United States Eye Color: Brown Case Number: NCMC1156424 Circumstances: Lauryn was last seen September 7, 2010. She may be in the company of an adult female. Lauryn was last seen wearing a brown onesie with a pink flower and pink dots. She has a skin rash on both forearms and inner knees. if you have any information please contact the National Center for Missing and Exploited children 1-800-THE-LOST (1-800-843-5678) also you can go to their website www.missingkids.com

i came across a question the other day that made me think.. the question was "what would you do if you saw a person becoming discriminated because of their race in a store by the cashier? Would you stand up or leave it alone?" In my mind I can't see why someone wouldn't stand up for the person being mistreated. Its the right thing to do, and if we keep silent are we not just as guilty as the person discriminating? If you turn your head and act like it's not happening it's the same thing as you discriminating against them. I think it is up to us to let people know that, that kind of abuse is not acceptable. Take a stand you never know how you might change someones life or perspective.

so i actually really like the original.. but i think i have fallen in love with this one so much more!!

pretty sweet mug that i'd love to own...

so i watched this movie today!! it was excellent. It is definately a family movie. I am a big fan of Selena Gomez so i had to watch this one. romana is a character you can easily fall in love with in that such a cute lil girl type of way. so go out and see it... and the music is pretty great too!

So about a week ago Shrek was on t.v. and Sergio was watching it. It was his fisrt time ever seeing it.. believe me I was amazed he hadn't seen it. So there I was in the kitchen cooking something for dinner when I hear this super cute laugh.. It made me smile.. He was like a kid entranced in front of the television set. It makes me smile NOW just thinking about it. It also really makes me miss him.. only 212 days to go before he comes home.. :)

so i love the line "But you're blinded by fluorescent lights In my plastic halo" i dont know why it is just lovely

i have been failing when it comes to blogging. I'm so sorry for anyone who has been waiting for me.. :P Sergio left today for Afghanistan.. to anyone who doesn't know Sergio is my boyfriend and is a marine. He will be gone for 7 months so please keep him in your prayers. He is Motor T so he works on on the trucks and drives them. so i am missing him dearly even though he just left today at about 3:20. I have been living in North Carolina for almost a month now. and i love it!! There is NO snow. which is the best part! haha.. so here are a few pictures from todays farewell..

so ive been in north carolina for about a week and a half. so far i love it. but soon every one will be leaving. today was the mark of the official day when people start leaving.some of my good friends are on their way to Afghanistan as i write this. booo!!! though i can say im proud to know such a wonderfully couragious group of people it still saddens me that they have to be right up on the frontlines. but someone has to do it right?!?! and sergio is leaving between the 15th and the 17th. so that makes me supper sad. they are all going to be gone for 7 months, which is alot better than the 14 months if he had to wait till next deployment. well here is to the 9 days i have left with him.