heroless endeavor

It's been a little crazy around here. Our family dog was deathly ill. Friday she was throwing up and had diarrhea and shaking pretty badly. First we thought it was because she ate something she wasn't supposed to, and it had been snowing so we thought she was shivering because she was cold.. As the day went on she just kept on. By the end of the night I wanted to take her to the vet. Of course we would have called for emergency but my mom said we would wait until morning. The next morning her health seemed to deteriorate greatly. The appointment was set for 11. As i was trying to get her to walk to the car she would try but end up stumbling and eventually just fall. Just to pick up her head was work. We brought her in and they couldn't find a heartbeat. They said it was around 15 bpm and it should have been around 150. She was severely dehydrated because she wouldn't drink anything. I was forcing water down her the night before with a child's medicine syringe. It tu...

I dive into frozen waves where the past comes back to life Fight fear for the selfish pain, it was worth it every time Hold still right before we crash 'cause we both know how this ends A clock ticks 'til it breaks your glass and I drown in you again

So Yesterday or I should say Tuesday since it's already 12:45 am on Thursday, My family and I went to the zoo in Omaha (an hour and a half away). It was so much fun. The weather wasn't exactly cooperating but we made the best of it. It was soooooooo cold and rainy. Pretty obnoxious. But I finally got to see my animals. My mom, sister and I stayed the night so we could go shopping the next day. Boy did I shop. I didn't get that much but my feet felt like I had just walked a million miles and back. We indulged in Cheesecake Factory (one of my favorite places because of their tropical tea and Kahlua coffee cheesecake) and had dinner at the fanciest restaurant I've ever been to called Mohogany Steakhouse . Seriously, I was like "mom they have towels in the bathroom INSTEAD of paper towels, we are so high class". That's just me being silly. Best steak I have ever eaten. Would recommend it to anyone if they are ever in the Omaha area. Just be sure to dress up i...

Craziest story I've read today "Man kills wife over fear that he had given her HIV" . Seriously how demented can a person be. He also says he was afraid she would have cancer. Claimed he was going to buy a gun  but wasn't a "violent" person. So stabbing just seemed more subtle? Maybe less painful? come on really. Let me guess he's going to make an insanity plea. story says that he also killed his son because he thought he has a disability. Which he didn't but even if he did... holy crap. It took him a couple days to call 911...I just can't believe people these days.

This is a little of this and that. I must say I am in one of "those" kinds of moods today. I feel pretty apathetic with that being said enjoy.. So anyone who knows me knows I love ALL kinds of music. But today was a "FOR TODAY" kind of day. They are a rock band from my home town. They are completely incredible and on fire. Who says great things don't come from the Midwest. ;) They just came out with a new CD on the 2nd of this month. I'm sad to say I haven't gone out and purchased it YET. But believe me I will. this is their website: FOR TODAY check it out they have some pretty great merch. this is my favorite song from their last cd...     some more random pictures that I think are in need of a share    

So I officially finished Mockingjay on Saturday. It did take me a lot longer than it should have because its an easy read and its considerably short compared to many other books I've read. It was great. Once I really gave myself a chance to really chew on it I couldn't stop reading. It's pretty intense and I became heavily involved with the characters. Some I loved others I hated.. But that's what makes a great book. I went through a rollercoaster of emotions but I liked it. I was sad when the trilogy ended. I have officially started WORLD WAR Z. So far so good, though I haven't gotten too far into it. I wonder what the rest of the world is reading?? On another note I found this on the computer... Don't laugh ... Yup, that's totally me.. ever chubby little roll ;)

I want to be her friend! How fantastic is this. She is so very brave. I know first hand how hard it is to go in front of your politicians and make a case I myself have done it in my home town. She makes a great argument and it's nice to know there is still some sense left in the world!  

I swear I can never get enough of Jesse y Joy. I have found myself listening to them constantly over the past month. I am not really sure why but I like em' a lot!

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just a little humor for the end of the night, if you get offended maybe you should re-evaluate yourself. because you know it's not a lie;)  dream a little dream

Tonight I finally watched the famous documentary "BULLY". It was fantastic in all the wrong ways. It made me so emotional. A lot of it was filmed here where my parents live in Sioux City IA. My goodness did it make me cry. It makes me want to be back in schools just to protect the kids who get bullied. I was so angry at the principle from East Middle. I dont know how she can even be in charge of a school. And for school officials to look passed the reality of what's happening in todays schools sickens me. Kids are not just being kids, there are somethings that adults need to intervene in and to use the excuse boys will be boys makes me want to punch them in the face. Kids should feel safe at school not terrified. I can't even been to express how angry I am. How can children be so cruel. Makes me want to homeschool. Not that I trust the public school system anyways, the way people are these days. That's another subject all together (just to make it clear I had both...

Tonight I finally decided that before I go to bed I was going to read a little. I have been horrible in this area since I have been home visiting my family. But for good reason. I would rather spend time with them than be in a book. You know you're important if I give up reading for you ;) Anyways I finally kept trucking through Mockingjay, don't get me wrong its been a great book and I am not even half way through it. I just keep getting distracted. There was a quote that stood out to me. Katniss is standing there looking at some amazing weapons and she asks Gale if it would be easy for him to use that [the weapon] on someone. He tells her that's not what he said but if it was a necessity than yes. she agrees and then thinks to herself, "but I don't know what to tell him about the aftermath of killing a person. About how they never leave you." I know that most of us (I would hope all) would easily say YES we would use it to protect ourselves and those we ca...