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drowning


i was watching t.v. today and i heard a quote that went something like this:

"Do you ever feel like your drowning, even when your not in water?"

my answer is YES to many times than i'd like. My personal opinion is its one of the worst feelings in the world. It's like that point in a movie where everyone seems to be moving so fast and you can see it all because you don't seem to be going anywhere.. you don't seem to be noticed. your just a another face in the crowd.. noone cares. your hyperventilating flalling about just asking for air. for someone to come be that air so you can breathe again. you want to weep and scream all at the same time... i know this feeling very well. almost to well i'd say.. loneliness is a scary feeling. but getting over it is the best feeling in the world. that redeeming moment in time where you see your not alone. and that you could have inhaled the whole time, your self pity just got in the way. someone eventually comes into your life and becomes that air. and thank God for sending those someones to help.

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