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i am

i am .....
Broken... forgotten... remembered....

alive mistaken.... cold
half full... empty...
insecure... happy... casual.....

peaceful.... a fighter...
hopeful.... gentle... loud....
CRAZY... emo.. heartbroken...

both lost and found
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everything and still nothing...
hardworking.... goal oriented... creative...
delightful.. intrigued... resentful...


PROUD..... insignificant...
hard headed... grudge holder...
misunderstood
magical...
mysterious... giddy..
excited.. protecter of persons
friend..
i am ME

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