aut viam inveniam aut faciam - I will either find a way or make one

Spending the night listening to his amazing voice and journaling. I really feel like this may get the things I need to get out, out. I find that Everything tends to hit me at the weirdest of times. I want to cry when I least expect it. It just creeps up and scares the heck out of me. I really do hate feelings sometimes.. If I am honest I can't even figure out what is the pin point of my sadness. Yes there is a big picture but what is the real reason? So my journal is filling up pretty quickly with some kind of message from my heart. Even so I am afraid to be completely honest. Little by little, day by day I know I will discover it all.
In other news, I have acquired 2 jobs. I have a feeling I may be tired for some time but it will be so worth it. I embrace the busy schedule and the ability to achieve things which is my ultimate goal. Fulfill some dreams. whether it be concerts or cosplay.. or something even bigger that I will keep to myself until I get there. I am making time for me. Much needed time. Lots of coffee here I come ;)
Life has a real funny way of laughing at me and throwing a few things my way. There are plenty of people who fade in life and a few you choose to keep close or they choose to stay close.I suppose we will find out when we look back on life who will make the cut.
 But I can say I have some tattoos in my future. I can't wait to get them. I have waited this long to make sure I knew what I wanted and I think I found the beginning of a new addiction.
Also, I think I would love a piece of pumpkin cheesecake and a nice glass of Moscato. yumm.
                   XOXOXO