today was leeland.. i come to find out he is a year younger than me and he is married.. what the stink.. i always find it odd when ppl my age or younger than me are married.. especially people i know.. it throws me off and for some odd reason makes me feel soo behind. though i will stress i am not in MUCH of a hurry. but its still makes me wonder.. what the stink is my hold up.. haha.. i would love to spend the rest of my life with that one person.. to have to share everything.. to make whats mine "ours". even if it means problems and arguments.. i just think they make you grow deeper together...but till my day comes.. people who are younger or my age.. STOP GETTING MARRIED.. !! please and thank you..
Sometime I wish people would learn not to underestimate me. When I want to get somewhere or get something accomplished I am very capable of doing so. Of course there are always limitations and set backs but I know how to push through it. I lived in a time where our money was tight and we had very little but we made it through.. Just because I am where I am today and don't look like i have ever had to fight my way out of the bottom doesn't mean anything. Looks can and are deceiving. Of course I don't believe in telling what most would call a "sob" story. I am not one who looks for a pity party.. But please know that I do know what it is like to go without in many aspects. I embrace that time in my life and it has taught me to be thankful of what I have. I will never forget it but I also will never return. Was it by choice and my own doing?? Of course not, who chooses to go without? Being born into it is one thing.. but staying in it is another. We all make decision...
dont worry Ana you will find someone :) your time will come
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