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For various reasons that don't directly deal with me, I have come to think upon a few things. I am speaking from a female perspective but I come to assume that insecurities seem to stem from the same type of problems. Everyday we deal with people who have a huge impact on us personally, people that we love, people who's opinions matter. When their persepective of us has been scewed in anyway we tend to take it to heart. It's human nature to take their words and feel them deeper than they should be. So when they speak of or to us in a way thats negative we will begin to perceive ourselves in a negative manner. Or when we come to find that those persons have done you wrong we begin to think there must be something I'm missing. Each and everything they do affects us. If a person cheats, we think; something MUST be wrong with us. If a person lies to us, we wonder why we were not worth the truth. What could we have done to prevent them from going off and doing us wrong? They tend to make us feel guilty for something they did. They get defensive, why?? because they KNOW that they have done wrong but are not mature enough to admit it. Admitting it would mean they would have to let go of their pride and grow up. Now the trust in your relationship has been strained. It will take lots of time for it (trust) to be gained again, if both parties are even interested. But with every situations the person in the wrong has to put for th effort. They cannot just expect things to fall back into place the way they were. It will not be an over night change. Just remember it takes one second to ruin the good but it takes time to fix the wrong. I think we have all been guilty and have all been victims. But it is up to you to change your perspective of yourself. Be strong and let them know that you won't stand for their childish behavior. You deserve so much more.

picture: my dear friend Arcelia, my edited version of her :)

“The things you want are always possible; it is just that the way to get them is not always apparent. The only real obstacle in your path to a fulfilling life is you, and that can be a considerable obstacle because you carry the baggage of insecurities and past experience.” -Les Brown

“The beauty of enmity is insecurity; the beauty of friendship is in security.”
-Robert Frost

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