Spending the night listening to his amazing voice and journaling. I really feel like this may get the things I need to get out, out. I find that Everything tends to hit me at the weirdest of times. I want to cry when I least expect it. It just creeps up and scares the heck out of me. I really do hate feelings sometimes.. If I am honest I can't even figure out what is the pin point of my sadness. Yes there is a big picture but what is the real reason? So my journal is filling up pretty quickly with some kind of message from my heart. Even so I am afraid to be completely honest. Little by little, day by day I know I will discover it all. In other news, I have acquired 2 jobs. I have a feeling I may be tired for some time but it will be so worth it. I embrace the busy schedule and the ability to achieve things which is my ultimate goal. Fulfill some dreams. whether it be concerts or cosplay.. or something even bigger that I will keep to myself until I get there. I am making time fo...
Negativity is a hard thing to break, girl. Don't be too hard on yourself. Just that fact that you're making an effort to change is awesome. Look at is as a minor set back, eh?
ReplyDeleteIf this whole thing were easy, we'd all be bubbling with positivity... well... some people like being negative :P But, *more* people would be positive ALL THE TIME... and they aren't.
Positivity is a state of mind. Slipping up doesn't mean you aren't positive. I know, it was part of the 'challenge'. But, seeing this as a failure... nah :) Keep it up! It'll get easier and easier ^_^ ... and we'll all be a bit negative from time to time )))